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If I could pretend that I'm asleep,
When my tears start to fall
I peek out from behind these walls..
I think nobody knows..















Friday, May 14, 2010

love at first sight


both are convinced
that a sudden surge of emotion bound them together.
beautiful is such a certainty,
but uncertainty is more beautiful.

because they didn't know each other earlier,they suppose that
nothing was happening between them.
what of the streets,stairways and corridors
where they could have passed each other long ago?

i'd like to ask them
whether they remember--perhaps in a revolving door
ever being face to face?
an "excuse me" in a crowd
or a voice "wrong number" in the receiver.
but i know their answer:
no,they don't remember.

they'd be greatly astonished
to learn that for a long time
chance had been playing with them.

not yet wholly ready
to transform into fate for them
it approached them, then backed off,
stood in their way
and, suppressing a giggle,
jumped to the side.

there were sings,signals:
but what of it if they were illegible.
perhaps three years ago,
or last Tuesday
did a certain leaflet fly
from shoulder to shoulder?
there was something lost and picked up.
who knows but what it was a ball
in the bushes of childhood.

there were doorknobs and bells
or which earlier
touched piled on touch.
bags beside each other in the luggage room.
perhaps they had the same dream on a certain night,
suddenly erased after waking.

every beginning
is but a continuation,
and the book of events
is never more than half open.

Love at first sight by wislawa Szymborska

Thursday, May 13, 2010

no conversation

for the first time I don't know what i should write in my blog..

i have no ideas, and no words can describe my language.

today i sit with a different emotion not like before this i wrote what i felt.

no attention that i can get anymore.

today, god answered my prayer-unfortunately i'm frustrated for this moment.

i don't know and i don't want to know..

here..i speak alone, no conversation and no friend to talk.

i just only have memory in my mind..

life can "Y.O.U" change my destiny?

Wednesday, May 12, 2010

unexpected

here i learn about gambling of my life.

its 9.55pm now and i feel too tired because of so many things i have to catch up about architecture.

i still thinking about what happened to me today and unexpected call from Shirley.
i don't want to talk about shirley.

for me, she is not professional because of she cannot accept my opinion regarding our new project in Sungai Besi. I just gave my opinion and what i think is the best for this project. Unfortunately, i had a bad conversation with Shirley and she said that i have no experience. we just talked about a new concept of proposal, Thats all.Is it wrong if I wanna share with her what i learnt from razif.

sometimes,people always not appreciate what we do for them and until one day its hurt our feeling.

reminder,
what you did it doesn't mean you can get it back.

I wonder if time has changed the way i am.

Thinking,
what i think now is should i quit from this job?

sometimes i don't want to- but its unexpected.

Monday, May 10, 2010

zulkarnain tidal

guess who sms me just now?

zulkarnain tidal-ajad's bestfriend,and he asked me how long have i been missing in fb..i closed my fb account because i have my own reason and he's no need to know about that.10 months i have been missing in fb.

i ask myself-is it anyone care about me?

i ask myself again-do you remember me?

*action speak louder than words*

should i?

my new journey - new hope and new environment.

today i start my new job with arkitek tressie yap.first think on my mind.what should i do today? only me and peng wei in the office?damn!!
let me introduce my new friend,peng wei. He's 32 years old and still single but not available.peng wei is a project architect and he so friendly with me.

my first day- now i still draft design for our new project in sungai besi, and the problem is no internet in my office so i cannot open email that tressie send to me.
and then i got a problem with my lunch time-serious i have no choices and i don't know what to eat.

what i feel now?nothing - I don't know what to say but at least i try to improve myself.

i ask myself again..

should i give up?

*unspoken*

Friday, May 7, 2010

rumi by coleman barks


The minute I heard my first love story,
I started looking for you, not knowing
how blind that was.

Lovers don't finally meet somewhere,
they're in each other all along.

bye bye biotech

hari ni hari terakhir aku kerja sebagai staff cssd.macam2 ucapan aku dapat,kad dan senyuman aku dapat.guys,i gonna miss u all-lepas ni pergi hiking ker melancong ker main go kart ke ajak aku tau.
1st aku nak ucapkan thank u kat razif aziz cos bagi kata2 semangat kat aku before dia pergi chicago.

i love u guys..

nik naziah-thanx sebab jd kawan aku,teman aku nak pelok2 dan berangan bersama2..nik pasni aku dah takder kalau kau nak duduk kat peha aku dan pinjam sikat.
azie-pasni aku tak boleh buat nescafe kau lagi tau.
pui yee- kau tetap melayu walaupon kau cina.huhuhu..mesti rindu nak dengar kau berceloteh.
asri-ingat saat aku pegang tangan kau sebab takut nak panjat broga hill..babe keep in touch.
rozie-hari ni dekat 10 kali kau lalu depan aku kata kau sedih jgn sedih ye kau tetap senior aku 1 unisel.
liza-mu jaga adikmu si nik naziah ni..kang dia asik complain nak berenti keje.
andrew-bro dont forget me..kau kawan baik aku.
fazzil;jangan lupa pelok bear mr bean kalo rindu fara.sorry tak dapat teman jogging lagi dah.
azlan low-lan jaga diri elok2 jangan senyap jer tau..
siew mun-dont be sad lah dear..i'm here for u lah..
angela lai-HELLO angela..i will miss the way u say good morning to me.
amiey ahmad-kak pasni u baca blog i selalu k..jangan lupa produk2 terbaru bobby brown dan mitch and marc..kak thanx cos dulu selalu dengar cerita2 pasal my bf.
kak june-congrats dah dapat anak sorry cos tak sempat jumpa.
qabrini-babe pasni calling2 aku yee..jgn asik call vivi jer..take care.

guys thanx for everything..pasti akan rindu korang semua..

yang penting aku tetap gothic walaupon jauh dari korang..ekekekek